The Meaning of Life

It sometimes seems almost comical... To think of what some of these words meant to me so long ago and what they mean to me now... Two TOTALLY different things...
I wouldn't change a thing now...
I wouldn't change how they treated me or how I treated them or how my mother treated me or how I treated her or how my brother treated me or how I treated him or (most of all) how my father treated me...
Change anything about my life and I might not be where I am today... Change anything in the slightest and I might not have my son or my daughter or my wife... Knowing what I know now, I don't think I could bear that...
So deal me some pain and wind me up with bad memories...
Like the Cleric in Equilibrium...
I pay it gladly...

Tess Partied All Night Long

I used to see things clearly
Now I see things hazy
But I can still see her eyes

On every person walking by
Even in my sleep at night
She's in dreams I never knew I had

It follows me 'round like a ghost in chains
Looking for redemption
Come love me one more time
And I'll show you rejection...

Let's go see a movie
We'll go back to my place and have a drink
Tess partied all night long
And when I took Pat in my arms
I thought I saw love clearly
But on the day she said goodbye
Her tears fell close to mine
Hers in relief, mine in pain...

It follows me 'round like a ghost in chains
Searching for redemption
Come on and love me one more time
And I'll show you rejection

I put my heart in her hands
She made a fist
And I haven't seen it since...

-AS-

Musical Memories

Got this from Jeff http://www.chaoscenter.blogspot.com

Random top 10 CD's:
1) Alice Cooper - The Eyes of Alice Cooper
2) Meat Loaf - Bat Out of Hell
3) Queensryche - Hear in the Now Frontier
4) Garth Brooks - No Fences
5) Frank Sinatra - 80th All the Best
6) Blotto - My Name's Blotto What's Yours?
7) South Park: Bigger, Longer, & Uncut Soundtrack
8) Savatage - Dead Winter Dead
9) Zodiac Mindwarp & the Love Reaction - Tattooed Beat Messiah
10) Journey - Greatest Hits

1.What is the total amount of music files on your computer? LOL Around 60GB

2. The last CD you bought is: Alice Cooper - Lace & Whiskey (German Import)

3. What is the last song you listened to before this message: Plavalaguna (The opera from the movie The Fifth Element)

4. Write down five songs you listen to a lot or mean a lot to you.
1) W.A.S.P. - Holding On
2) Heart - Nothing At All
3) Meatloaf - Objects in the Rear View Mirror (May Appear Closer Than They Are)
4) Queensryche - Someone Else?
5) Terran - I Know

5. Who are you gonna pass this stick to (three persons and why)?
1) No one (I'm a loner)
2) My son (But he's 5 so don't expect a response anytime soon)
3) No one (I'm still alone)

No real surprises here right? Ok maybe Plavalaguna but I swear it's playing on my media player right now LOL

Cries of a Lonely Girl

Cries of a lonely girl
Three days old
And she knows mother has taken her leave
She sets out for distant lands
Where they don't know
Praying someday her soul will be clean
And her heart aches from the lonliness
But still she goes on
Trying to find her new home

Cries of a lonely boy
Can still be heard
Echoing down through the well of father's soul
He goes to work each day
Like nothing's going on
Another fall and another drink to lean upon
And his heart breaks from the emptiness
But still he goes on
Thinking he's right all along

Cries of a lonely child
One second old
Born into a world that just doesn't know
And my heart weeps for the multitudes
But still we struggle on
Trying to understand what went wrong...

-A.S.-

I Know

A glance across the room
The woman I did love
Come full circle?
I'd know soon enough
Do you think she noticed
As the tears began to fall
Running stains down my cheeks
I thought I'd seen it all
but I don't know
I don't know

A right way to redemption
The wrong way to divine
No longer searching
For love in the nick of time
Had to keep it covered
The passion and the fire
Put it under wraps
Thought I could control desire
But I don't know
I don't know

My love is sailing out to sea
Keep a warm and waiting
Place in your heart for me
It's like a new life
I've been brought back to begin
I'll think back and smile now and then

A glance across the world
It feels like we're apart
One night of love
For a lifetime in the heart
A little time away
Is a lifetime deep inside
For every night we loved
There were two that I cried
And that I know
That I know...

-A.S.-

The Eventual Dream

Ok so how do I begin this?... ummm... So I'm sitting here doing this, watching Seinfeld as my 2yo daughter Cora Elizabeth is lying on the couch just relaxing... That's what I love about her... She's so damn cool... My 5yo son Quinn Andrew is upstairs wreaking havoc... That's what I love about him... He's not as cool but he's cute so that scores extra...
I am a 35yo stay-at-home father... I gotta tell ya it's the BOMB job... I get to play all day, except for those bothersome times when I have to clean the house... My current vice is World of Warcraft... I play several characters on the Lightning's Blade server... It's a wonderful game and lots of fun fun fun... I am in a guild called Section Eight (it's the military code for fkn nuts and the name of the mercenary group in a great john Travolta movie called Basic) with a bunch of friends from City of Heroes... City was also a fun game but only for a while (there isn't anything to do other than beat people up over and over) so we all started playing WoW and its great...
I'll post again later... Be well and be good...