A Far Away Place Called Home

Drive into another night
I know she'll be waiting
With open arms to welcome me
Back to the dawn
By candlelight I know she's there
My heart always patient
She knows she means much more to me
Than I'll ever tell
Have I been wandering forever
Always so alone
Please leave a light on for me
I'll be there as soon as I know
Until then I'll keep on searching
For the love I was shown
In a far away place called home...

Say another little prayer
Asking for guidance
I know I'll need a light to see
To find my way
So cold inside this weary night
But the warmth so forgiving
The only thing that's left for me
I'll find you someday
Have I been waiting for this moment
Since time was unknown
Empty hands always reaching
For a love of my own
Now have I finally found it
Or am I still on the road
To a far away place called home...

-A.S.-

Star Pattern

It's like looking through broken glass
With blood dripping off your arms
And seeing a serenity
That you know can never be yours
And in that dream you call out a name
That you never recognize
And think to yourself how strange it is
That you cover up your lives
The one too many people see each day
And you know cannot be true
Then the one you dream about every night
And know cannot be you
I've come to see and came to know
As the blood dripped off my arms
There are very few precious things in this life
And its lies are all its charms...

-A.S.-

Life, Love, Sex, Death

Picture this world through a fishbowl
Can that distorted view be yours?
Distortion reaches everywhere
If that is all you look for.
Everyone loves everyone dies
Not wonderful in the same sentence
But truth just the same...
So do you base your life on death?
Make your journey in violence and darkness
And reach your destination already dead?
Or can you reach for the stars in love
While those on the other side of the fence
Throw their dog shit in your backyard...
I try to love and live this life
In love with the world and all she bears
But if all life is love and life and sex and death and life and love
Why does everyone ask what comes after death
And no one asks what comes before life?

-A.S.-

Smoking

So...
I haven't had a cigarette in three days... I smoked my last on Saturday March 5th... My docs told me I had about five years to live if I didn't change some things... Personally I don't give a shit... I'd rather enjoy myself and check out when its time... Then I look at my kids... Had a few conversations with people I know who lost their parents when they were young and decided I couldn't do that to them... No more fun for me... Oh the sacrifices we must make...